When we feel frustrated at something, we tend to find an easy way out. I would encourage you to look at your future with God in it. Know that your future is bright with God, better to live the life without him. We can fail God and yes because we are simply human, we are imperfect. God knows that....God will not fail us even if we do.
God is LOVE - that's his name. His love is ever so perfect compared to human love. He sacrificed himself just for us.
Do you believe this simple truth? We have someone to lean on now - that's God.
We can cry out to him whenever we feel weak. We have a helper 24/7, just that we need to call him.
Honesty is important for healing to take place, we cannot lie to ourselves most of all, if we do, we are just kidding ourselves and holding onto our own strength for things. God wants us to cast our cares on him. He wants to help us in times of trouble. We do not need to frustrate ourselves, we do not rely on our own limited strength, temptation can be too huge for us to tackle in life. Let God helps you. Let God to get involved in your situations and He will guide you.
We are to be very very honest with God to admit our weaknesses and ask him to come and help. It's about your private chat with God, telling him all your struggles and needs. Be honest first...acknowledge that you need his help.
Help will surely come when we know how to humble ourselves before God and acknowledge him as our helper.
God bless you in your situation today.